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"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

The Satellite Heart Project.

inspiration.

this is what drives me from day to day.

i search for it in everything i do.

Last winter I start a photography project called the Satellite Heart project

I intend to continue this when the leaves change and when the snow falls

I still have so much left to say

this is the song that inspired it.

p.s. HAPPY 100th POST TO ME! woot woot.

Highlights of LIFE:

my mom came to Provo

I took pictures of her on photo booth & she got mad

so i "deleted" them

My fav. cousin growing up Lisa (right) got married!

The Budge Packers flag football team

Rowley & us fans :]

They win a lot & things get crazy (see 2 pictures above)

Cori & I went Halloween costume shopping..... hahahaha

My costume will be....

dun dun dun.....

Little Red Riding Hood

woot woot :]

tomorrow is wednesday... thank goodness.

Chuck & Blair

I have fallen for a new TV couple

Chuck & Blair

They are such a gravitating couple.

THEY HAVE TO END UP TOGETHER.

I guess we'll find out this season on Gossip Girl!

:[

a lot of bad news in a 1 hour period.

;[

BiTS OF LiFE

The UVUSA retreat

Sept. 17th

UVU pride baby

i've never felt so small

Best thing i've seen

I take back anything I said before

this is the best thing i've ever seen.

The Most Peaceful Song I Know Of.

I Imagine This Playing in Big Moment of My Life.

Heartbeats ♥

by Jose Gonzalez

One night to be confused
One night to speed up truth
We had a promise made
Four hands and then away

Both under influence
We had divine scent
To know what to say
Mind is a razor blade

To call for hands of above
To lean on
Wouldn't be good enough
For me, no

One night of magic rush
The start a simple touch
One night to push and scream
And then relief

Ten days of perfect tunes
The colors red and blue
We had a promise made
We were in love

To call for hands of above
To lean on
Wouldn't be good enough
For me, no

To call for hands of above
To lean on
Wouldn't be good enough

And you, you knew the hands of the devil
And you, kept us awake with wolf teeth
Sharing different heartbeats
In one night

To call for hands of above
To lean on
Wouldn't be good enough
For me, no

Jar of Hearts ♥

first of all,

today was the happiest day of 2010.

OH MY GOSH :]

second of all,

I AM SOOOO obsessed with this song:

"jar of hearts"

by christina perry

& then i found out sytycd did a piece to the song

(thanks lindsay :])

WATCH IT!!!

happy happy days :]

Golden Girls

I have a guilty pleasure

it's called

GOLDEN GIRLS

I just bought the first season

best idea of 2010.

for sure.

Breakfast at Tiffany's

Last night after falling back in love with Golden Spoon

(which opened in Orem, UT. HALLELUJAH)

Alexandria & I watched the classic Breakfast at Tiffany's

Sure there is that famous picture of Audrey Hepburn in every girl's room across the country. But has anyone really ever WATCHED the movie?

CAUSE IT IS SO WEIRD.

Alexandria & I couldn't stop laughing because

A) the plot was hard to follow & felt slightly pointless

B) Had nothing to do with breakfast at Tiffany's

& C) Audrey Hepburn plays the weirdest character in all of movie history. She is this flakey gold digger that was just ridiculous

However,

I STILL LOVE AUDREY HEPBURN

Because I believe she redeems herself in the movie

Don't Be Afraid of the Dark

That is a good suspense movie.

I did enjoy the main man in Breakfast at Tiffany's

George Peppard

That is one HANDSOME guy!

simple song ♥

i almost forgot about how much i LOVE this song.

this will be my future wedding song,

or if i daydream about my wedding for the rest of my life

this is what it would be

"simple song"

by david saw

i love you like a melody running through my head.

STRESSED spelt backwards = DESSERTS

i really overwhelmed myself this semester/school year.

i knew i'd be really busy but i figured i could juggle everything

& technically i am

but it's taking a toll!

I AM STRESSIN'

& no one comforts me like Ben & Jerry do.

i could really use some of that chubby hubby right about now!

best flavor for sure

but wait, i'm supposed to be losing my college weight...

which leads me to my other staple

AKA

boy do i loovvvee this stuff.

although, i think i'm lovin' the diet pepsi more.

i feel like a traitor.

& in between all of the meetings, work, classes, service projects, living pay check to pay check, set ups, & committee business ...

i still managed to find me some good ol' music

Meagan style

& don't forget florence + the machine

cosmic love

i could really use some TLC right about now.

thank goodness for my mom who is comin in 1 week.

yesssss!

woahhh

ANOTHER ONE OF MY FRIENDS JUST GOT ENGAGED!

holy cow.

I'm sooo happy for her! She really deserves it.

As for me,

I am perfectly content being in a relationship with myself, haha.

for now.

THERE IS SOMETHING IN THE WATER IN PROVO.

Movie Night

Last night there was a movie night at UVU.

They played Toy Story 3 in the courtyard

it was soooo much fun!

Lindsay, Me, Cori, & Brenden

My new favorite quote

by Ralph Waldo Emerson

Have a good rest of the weekend!

A Dream ♥

"i was a little girl

alone in my little world who dreamed of a little home for me.

i played pretend between the trees

& fed my house guests bark & leaves

& laughed in my pretty bed of green

i had a dream

that i could fly from the highest swing

i had a dream"

"long walks in the dark

through woods grown behind the park

i asked God who i'm supposed to be

the stars smiled down at me

God answered in silent reverie

i said a prayer

& fell asleep"

Easter. Even when I was 3 chocolate was the highlight of my life haha.

Why did my mother dress me?

"Now i'm old & feeling gray

I don't know what's left to say,

about this life i'm willing to leave

i lived it full & i lived it well

as many tales as i live to tell.

i'm ready now...

i'm ready now.

to fly from the highest swing.

i had a dream"

Drake

Dear Drake,

I loved you before you were famous.

When you were on Degrassi

& played Jimmy

Now you are super famous & I still love you

"Find your love"

is the best song ever.

Just thought you should know.

Mockingjay & fun

i know most people have heard of the book series The Hunger Games

& i just finished the last book of the series.

Mockingjay

it was a way good book. & the last 150 pages were INSANE.

However, i still don't know what to make of the ending...

it wasn't resolved exactly how i wanted it to be...

but at the same time i like how it ended because it was realistic & the people in the book ended up destroyed physically, mentally, etc. Because of everything they went through i don't think there was a way it could have resolved happily ever after.

Like how in Breaking Dawn of the Twilight series, there was an epic battle being built up & then nothing ended up happening. Oh no, not in Mockingjay.

So part of me is satisfied & part of me isn't. Maybe that's why i still don't know what to make of it.

Even to this day i find myself thinking about the life of Katniss, Peeta, & Gale.

While doing my hair... or picking out an outfit.

So obviously the books have made an impact on my life haha.

The books are all really great & a fairly easy read.

I just find myself wishing it hadn't been the last book!

just loving life hahahaha.

A few things .

soooo i'm white.

not just like normal white, i'm UTAH WINTER white.

it makes me sooo sad.

this summer i can probably count the amount of time i layed out on one hand.

THIS would never happen back home in VEGAS. ohhh i miss home.

so the moral of the story is that any color i built up over summer

has & is quickly diminishing.

SO me & Melissa decided that we will buy tanning passes asap.

which basically means as soon as i get paid, cause i . am. POOR.

supporting yourself it hard but thankfully after i pay tuition & get paid i can start building my savings... all over again, yay. :[

Besides the stress of money & life:

Getting the Giant Steps service program together.

Planning the next dance with the dance committee

(Inaugural Ball which i need a date for bytheway. ah)

classes.

Department Rep for Elementary Ed (so advertising for the speaker that is coming to campus)

trying to be social haha.

life is so crazy.

but i have got to appreciate everything i have

and all the people i meet in the process

i have a lot of things to be happy about:

like for example my fabulous roommate Melissa

who i have a lot of fun & crazy times with

like last night

when we were laughing uncontrollably over NOTHING

& i cried because i was laughing so hard.

sometimes you just have to laugh about life

We have a lot in common.

Like looking forward to our future.

& what we hope for...

she has a lot of good advice that i've really needed lately.

it's nice coming home to a friend who has got your back & will tell you the truth.

& you can spill your guts to

like last night

ME: i just don't understand why some people that hurt you so much just move on with their lives & have no troubles at all. They just have a happy life full of blessings.

Melissa: Well, first of all you don't always know what they are struggling with

Me: true

Melissa: And also there is a difference between being blessed & moving on. Like those people will move on & on & on but that doesn't mean they are being blessed. Meagan, when you move on IT WILL be a blessing because he will be amazing & you are just preparing for that.

that stood out to me sooo much. and turned my attitude quickly around. i think she was prompted to say that to me because i can understand Heavenly Father's big picture so much better now. and the difference between someone else getting what you want & you actually getting it later on 1,000 times better. and it is way more lasting & better then.

another day & another lesson.

now for a long weekend of work & play :]

sweet.

UVU

the UVU intramurals video that me & some friends starred in .

haha, i'm in the beginning.