we've all been spoken for

what good is a life?

with no one to share.. the light of the moon...

the honor of a swear.

we belong together,

like the open seas & shores

...

we've all been spoken for.

all this undecision

...

still we've got our hearts on safe.

someday when you're lonely,

sometime after all this bliss.

somewhere lost in emptiness

i hope you find this gift..

The New Sheri Dew.

BITS OF COLLEGE

J.P.

All from Vegas :]

Lexie Said " if you love me you'd hide in a closet" what did i do? i hid in Wesley's closet!!

Me & B-RANDON...

college is really getting to us :]

WWAD?

my bed! :]

Well... first of all. college is great! i love UVU & the campus & my teachers are great! i wish i didn't have to go part time so that way i could take more classes that i need to but i guess that's my fault for not getting a scholarship haha :] My friends & i have met lots of other people & ironically (sp?) enough all our close friends are from vegas! but none of which we hung out with while we were there! it's only been about 5 days i have been here. i love my room & bed is super comfy.. always a plus! my current goal is getting a job! One problem is i can't sleep past 9:30 no matter how late i go to bed ha.. so i'm kinda tired right now! Tori & Lexie were very upset 2 nights ago & created an FML.. our apartment is now called "the college cat ladies forever" ... they made it up. it kinda has a nice ring to it :] haha HOWEVER, their problems are completely irrelevant! They both have boys or possibilities of boys! ... they are silly. I on the other hand, have found my calling and accepted it. I am the new Sheri Dew. I am perfectly aware that i am single & will be for a very long time! I always wanted to write a book! No offense to her at all, she is an AMAZING woman, just saying... if i'm gonna be single for the rest of my life i might as well do it right! yup, there you go. & i have the stats to back it up so arguing against this point wouldn't be any good haha. But college is wonderful, i can't wait till i have in state tuition! I can't wait till i go to institute or church for that matter and meet the people that live around me! haha. there isn't church this sunday so we'll see how that goes :] Provo is a great college city! I've had no breakdowns although i did come close when i couldn't get my ink cartridge to replace. but i refused to let it break me down!! haha it was an interesting experience :] ... so that's about all that's new. there's a lot new, but a lot that's not also. Well... i guess i'll stop writing. Until next time :]

- The New Sheri Dew

READY? set... go.

My room is almost empty! it feels weird sitting here, i don't feel very sad that this is my last night in my room because it doesn't feel like my room anymore! i've always been very fond of my room... the old version of it :] sooo tomorrow i officially move out! exciting? yes. scary? cha. there is no saying what is going to happen in the future, nothing is guaranteed. that's probably why there are so many mixed emotions of the big move. i thought i would cry when i packed up my room but i didn't! i surprise myself every day haha. i have a 6 hour drive in front of me... luckily my sister will be in my car to keep me entertained! i'm so glad i have the family i do. i love them so much... i don't think there is another family quite like ours... we're quirky. i love it :] i can't wait to take friend from college home to Las Vegas. apparently it's appealing to people who haven't lived here for 16 years... i've never understood it but hey, i'm an insider so my judgement isn't the best! i'm nervous about my first day of school & work... idk how all this work stuff is gonna go but whatever happens i'll be fine with! i just want money hahaha. other than the firsts i'm thrilled to be living up in Provo. I have tons of family up there, and there is nothing i love more than family! i can't wait to write again when i've moved in! wish me luck!

a little something!

Lindsay's burial site was beautiful! her picture was beautiful as well, i had a good day hanging with my great friends. i can't wait to have a dinner with all them again on thursday!

well there was a beautiful quote on Lindsay's grave stone...

a little something:

"as you danced in the light with joy, love lifted you.

as you brushed this world so gently, you lifted us"

it fits her so nicely!

Lindsay Bennett

follow your bliss

ahhh :]

OH BOY

I have like 1 billion & 2 emotions and things running through my head & i can't decide which one to ignore, forget, think about, cry about, or laugh about...

1) boys are dumb

sorry to any boys out there

there's probably some decent guys that are brilliant out there

but man, the majority of your species doesn't do you much good hahaha

i haven't had much luck with findin a good guy through my long 18 years of life

but i kinda blame myself!

i learned something about myself lately... it's scary when you find a good guy!

i don't know why, but it scares me! if you understand me (which i know most girls do) then you can

probably give me some advice.

if you have found a real jerk... i can give you advice about some of those :]

2) you know i think it's fun when you realize what a pig a guy is

& then he still tries talking to you

i got a good laugh outta that today :]

i laughed out loud when he tried flirting with me today

um excuse me mr. does your girlfriend know your talking to me?

the sad thing is... the 3 girls your hooking up with right now probably do know.

hahahaha

it's not that i actually enjoy talking to you.

i just don't feel like dealing with the tears when i tell you how i really feel about you

that sounds rude...

oh well hahaha

in the case of running into you at college & church & all. oh boy

those lines you were throwing out tonight were FUNNY!!!

3) me & my girls are visiting Lindsay's grave tomorrow...

it's been 4 months today that she passed away.

i didn't know i'd be this sad about it!

Part of me feels like i don't deserve to be sad cause i wasn't her best friend when she passed away... but i miss her a lot.

maybe it's cause she died 3 days before her 19th birthday?

maybe it's cause the pain she went through before she left must have been unbearable.

i can't think about that.

our dance team that year was amazing!

Lindsay really did teach me sooo much, and every since i feel like i've been walking around with a weight on my shoulders. I don't know if i know how to deal with it?

But when all fails & all is wrong. i do know one thing.

i have my girls with me.

my dance girls. i love them to pieces. & always will!

forever & ever! i love them so much.

4) NEW MOON:

what the crap new moon?

i thought i had my head on straight! Jacob = bad & Edward = good

now you gotta go makin jacob all smoking hott & edward all ugly

it was not supposed to be like this!

did i just turn into a jacob fan??

confusion

you see what i mean? i have a confusing brain.

5) i'm gonna miss my mommy

i leave for college in 6 days & i can't wait!

except i'm so close with my mom & i won't see her everyday :[

6) boys make life complicated. yup.

7) i have a lot to say... & you wouldn't know!

- i hope he was worth our friendship

-i'm scared

- i think you're annoying & a pig

-it's never ok to think you are not good enough for a boy & i'm always right, end of discussion.

-you are the bravest person i've ever met

- i really miss you

-every time you text me i have a panic attack hahahaha

-i can do it, i know i can

-sorry, it's kinda hard to express how i feel towards you but thank you for all you do & i love you & will miss you a lot

-wow i held this in too long

-i look up to you.

-i listened to your song and i wasn't afraid anymore

8) missionaries:

i can't think about when my brother will come home or i'll pee my pants with excitement!

my brother is the one reason i still believe in good guys

I want to be his best friend when he comes home!

one of my guy friends just left on a mission

and his best friend is like really depressed

it's really cute how much he cares

but i'm not kidding this is a serious bromance we got goin on

HAHAHAHAHA

that was for lauren :] hahahahaha

oh i'll miss her too

p.s. i have a french pen pal! he's a sweetie!

9) WHAT IF:

i wanna do so much in the future!

what if i don't do it all?

what if i get fired?

what if i don't live up to my potential?

what if i don't do everything i want to?

what if i don't have enough time left to make a difference?

i quite enjoy this getting stuff off my chest thing.

this might be the last thing. it's a big one.

10) my first real heart break.

hmmm... how do i say this?

you know it's rude that i still think about you everyday?

guess what, a couple weeks ago i realized you're really not that great guy i had been thinking you were all this time. and i actually felt ok inside..

guess what? today, i forgot it.

When you get home. i don't wanna see you, please don't talk to me.

if i ever saw you, i'd just cry. hurt tears.

i might not ever have closure, but i will be ok.

duhh i will haha i'm not the only person to be torn apart.

LUCKILY, the first time common sense came knockin telling me you are a big FAT LIAR

i wouldn't let myself love you as much as i did.

i don't do a good job listening to myself. & i definately didn't listen then.

ouch, that still hurts, it definately left a huge bruise.

i HATE crying, i HATE that you made me cry, i HATE i cried for more than 2 days.

i HATE that you had the guts to write me and tell me your feelings were true

i HATE that i know you're still talking to her.

i HATE that everyone looked at me like i was dumb

UGH I HATE that i suck at trying to tell you how i feel.

i hate that you'll never know.

but i don't hate you, nope i don't. if i hate you then you'll still have a part of me.

no matter what crap you go through, you might as well laugh about it now :] cause when it comes down to it... everything will look better tomorrow. I AM TOO BLESSED TO BE DEPRESSED. that one i got from brother tesch. my friends are so amazing, wow what would i do without them!! i have the best family a girl could ask for. i think i'm smart for my age. i think i've had enough bad experiences to never make someone else feel the way i have. i think everything happens for a reason, and i think ... no matter how gloomy the future looks... no matter how much you want to give up... everything will work out how it is meant to. AND i KNOW my father in heaven knows exactly who i am and how i feel... & he loves everyone just the same. & everyone deserves to be treated like the child of God that they are.

THE END.

few words.

A Haunting in Conneticut. don't see it.

ya i don't know how to spell Conneticut.

watching a scary movie before you go to bed is the worst idea ever!

hopefully i don't not have to pee tonight cause i am not getting out of my bed

boo scary devil movies

yay for my busy and exciting day tomorrow!! :] :]

GiLMORE-LiCiOUS!"

" i must always know where you are, ESPECIALLY if you are wearing my shoes"

"Boys don't like funny girls.... noted."

"that is some kick @$$ wine!... nice poetry"

"behold the healing powers of a bath"

i think they are funnier when you are actually watching the show :]

just snipits from my new obsession... well not really new, but anyways! Gilmore Girls. Me and my mom have always loved the show and stayed pretty true to it but have never seen every episode from the beginning. last christmas my mom got me the first 3 seasons. they sat on my shelf, until now when me and my mom were reminded of how much we love the show. then we embarked on a crazy journey that involved watching these 3 seasons, popcorn, 12 days, and the police. (the last part was a lie i just watched 2 hours of gilmore girls and i can't help but "attempt" to talk in their lingo... :] ) if you haven't seen this show, you are missing out! it's quite fun for me and my mom (and yes i said quite... Rory would be proud...) if i get fancy i might post a scene/the theme/ or a picture of gilmore girls. of course i had a plan of how i would write about the amazingness of this show but duhh i'm not the best translator between my brain and mouth, or in this case hands. i don't quite (quite) do it justice :] i gotta say lorelai is kinda the heroine of the millenium. if only we could all be as witty as her haha. me and my mom catch ourselves saying stuff like "ya right how could she eat all that pizza and chinese food and ice cream every night! look at how skinny she is!" then we are quickly reminded for a brief couple of seconds ... oh the show is not real, these people are fake. and then we forget :] i'm STILL cheering for Lorelai and Luke to get offically married! they BELONG with each other! i love Suki too she is so cute, she's the best friend everyone should have :] plus, she cooks really good. Welp, i thought i'd share my latest obsession and the item that is consuming most of my time. hey every summer you HAVE to have a show you watch all the season of, right? right. well i gotta go to bed, i have to work out in the morning. Lorelai would be disappointed to hear that, haha oh no there i go again! Here's to the best mother/daughter duo on TV!

p.s. Stars Hallow, Conneticut (sp?) doesn't really exist, we googled it.

"i'm afraid when your heart is involved it all comes out in moron"

Well here it goes! this is my first entry on my blog... i'm not quite sure why i have one, but they seem fun! haha, i don't know how this works either so i'm learning! It is way too late (well not really but i'm a grandma these days) and i have to work early... so what am i doing?? playing on my laptop of course! I guess I should say right now i have a sarcastic humor... soooo ya :] Welp, my very good friend who i love so much, Elizabeth, put up pictures on facebook of a lunch me her & my other good friend Ben had. We tended to do that this summer... we all met this year in our trig class. I think people tend to make friends in math classes. I have a theory about that haha. so i'm posting a couple of them... i hope... i don't know if it'll work, i got one picture uploaded & now i'm having issues with more but anyways. These 2 friends are one of my best and i love them SOO much! i will miss them terribly when i go away in 2 weeks to college! They are honestly the best friends a girl could ask for! not that they are reading this but thank you :] well how's that for a first entry? not too bad.