"truth hurts because it means we have to.... CHANGE."

if it makes you less sad:

i will die by your hand

i hope you find out what you want.

i already know what i am.

& if it makes you less sad

we'll start talking again

you can tell me how vile

already know that i am

i'll grow old

start acting my age

be a brand new day

in a life that you hate...

a crown of gold

a heart that harder than stone

& it hurts to hold on

but it's missed when it's...

gone.

call me a safe bet

i'm betting i'm not.

glad that you can forgive

only hoping as time goes...

you can...

forget

if it makes you less sad

i'll move out of the state

you can keep to yourself

i'll keep out of your way.

& if makes you less sad,

i'll take your pictures all down.

every picture you paint.

i will paint myself out..

it's as cold as a tomb

& it's dark in your room

i wanna sneak to your bed

& pour salt in your wounds

so call it quits or get a grip.

...

you are calling it close

let your beauty unfold

how i like the skin stretched over your bones

you are second hand smoke.

you are so fragile & thin

standing trial for your sins

holding onto yourself the best you can

you are the smell of chlorine

you are the blood in my veins

...

i'm glad that you can forgive

only hoping as time goes ...

you can.

forget.

something always brings me back to you.

it never takes too long.

no matter what i say or do.

i still feel you here, till the moment i'm gone.

you hold me without touch

you keep me without chains

I never wanted anything so much.

than to drown in your love & not feel your rain

SET ME FREE

LEAVE ME BE

I DONT WANNA FALL ANOTHER MOMENT IN TO YOUR GRAVITY

here i am.

and i stand,

so tall

just the way i'm supposed to be..

but you're onto me.

& all over me.

you loved me cause i'm fragile.

but i thought that i was STRONG

but you touch me for a little while.

& all my fragile strength is gone.

SET ME FREE

LEAVE ME BE.

I DONT WANNA FALL ANOTHER MOMENT INTO YOUR GRAVITY

here i am.

& i stand.

so tall

just the way i'm supposed to be.

Maybe We Need SLEEP?

Tori

Sometimes we just getting really tired.

Laying down on Wesley's couch

Lexie didn't quite make it to the couch haha

OK. Kade (boy seen above) & Camilla & Lexie ALL claim to be his girlfriend.. but I'm definitely the # 1 girlfriend haha. Kade is Wesley's little cousin.

PARTY iN #152

1 class today...

dancing in lexie's car the entire ride home

getting funny looks

talking to a special person

2 friends home

getting ready for a ward party

laundry hanging everywhere

dancing around our apartment

making mischievious plans

asking tori how to spell mischievious

talking to some great friends

colbie caillat

falling for you...

LIFE IS GREAT!

we've all been spoken for

what good is a life?

with no one to share.. the light of the moon...

the honor of a swear.

we belong together,

like the open seas & shores

...

we've all been spoken for.

all this undecision

...

still we've got our hearts on safe.

someday when you're lonely,

sometime after all this bliss.

somewhere lost in emptiness

i hope you find this gift..

The New Sheri Dew.

BITS OF COLLEGE

J.P.

All from Vegas :]

Lexie Said " if you love me you'd hide in a closet" what did i do? i hid in Wesley's closet!!

Me & B-RANDON...

college is really getting to us :]

WWAD?

my bed! :]

Well... first of all. college is great! i love UVU & the campus & my teachers are great! i wish i didn't have to go part time so that way i could take more classes that i need to but i guess that's my fault for not getting a scholarship haha :] My friends & i have met lots of other people & ironically (sp?) enough all our close friends are from vegas! but none of which we hung out with while we were there! it's only been about 5 days i have been here. i love my room & bed is super comfy.. always a plus! my current goal is getting a job! One problem is i can't sleep past 9:30 no matter how late i go to bed ha.. so i'm kinda tired right now! Tori & Lexie were very upset 2 nights ago & created an FML.. our apartment is now called "the college cat ladies forever" ... they made it up. it kinda has a nice ring to it :] haha HOWEVER, their problems are completely irrelevant! They both have boys or possibilities of boys! ... they are silly. I on the other hand, have found my calling and accepted it. I am the new Sheri Dew. I am perfectly aware that i am single & will be for a very long time! I always wanted to write a book! No offense to her at all, she is an AMAZING woman, just saying... if i'm gonna be single for the rest of my life i might as well do it right! yup, there you go. & i have the stats to back it up so arguing against this point wouldn't be any good haha. But college is wonderful, i can't wait till i have in state tuition! I can't wait till i go to institute or church for that matter and meet the people that live around me! haha. there isn't church this sunday so we'll see how that goes :] Provo is a great college city! I've had no breakdowns although i did come close when i couldn't get my ink cartridge to replace. but i refused to let it break me down!! haha it was an interesting experience :] ... so that's about all that's new. there's a lot new, but a lot that's not also. Well... i guess i'll stop writing. Until next time :]

- The New Sheri Dew

READY? set... go.

My room is almost empty! it feels weird sitting here, i don't feel very sad that this is my last night in my room because it doesn't feel like my room anymore! i've always been very fond of my room... the old version of it :] sooo tomorrow i officially move out! exciting? yes. scary? cha. there is no saying what is going to happen in the future, nothing is guaranteed. that's probably why there are so many mixed emotions of the big move. i thought i would cry when i packed up my room but i didn't! i surprise myself every day haha. i have a 6 hour drive in front of me... luckily my sister will be in my car to keep me entertained! i'm so glad i have the family i do. i love them so much... i don't think there is another family quite like ours... we're quirky. i love it :] i can't wait to take friend from college home to Las Vegas. apparently it's appealing to people who haven't lived here for 16 years... i've never understood it but hey, i'm an insider so my judgement isn't the best! i'm nervous about my first day of school & work... idk how all this work stuff is gonna go but whatever happens i'll be fine with! i just want money hahaha. other than the firsts i'm thrilled to be living up in Provo. I have tons of family up there, and there is nothing i love more than family! i can't wait to write again when i've moved in! wish me luck!

a little something!

Lindsay's burial site was beautiful! her picture was beautiful as well, i had a good day hanging with my great friends. i can't wait to have a dinner with all them again on thursday!

well there was a beautiful quote on Lindsay's grave stone...

a little something:

"as you danced in the light with joy, love lifted you.

as you brushed this world so gently, you lifted us"

it fits her so nicely!

Lindsay Bennett

follow your bliss