words words words

i can't ever really explain myself very well.

actually i take that back, there are those moments.

however, they are rare

haha :]

i have a lot to say...

but i don't think i want to say it outloud.

that's what music is there for right?

music definitely keeps me sane.

lyrics definitely keep me alive!

so if all of my posts are lyrics of songs.

they have meaning

f.y.i.

i just don't know what i want to say, how i want to say it, & who i should tell it to

i don't want to call anyone out either...

not tonight anyways! haha

people aren't perfect, ya duhh i know right?

i am DEFINITELY not perfect.

so i don't feel like judging anyone.

i just need to say how i feel.

which isn't always easy!

just thought i'd explain myself.

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by...

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,


Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to


I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right


And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time


And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star