i love you like a melody.. you're running through my head.

i have yet again found a new obsession.

something in your voice, leave me with no choice.

you always win.

the tone and the sound

tears me to the ground

i'm takin in.

you're breaking through my skin

& i love you like a melody

you're running through my head

i love you like a simple song

you always sound the best

i love you.

it's hard to believe

what you see in me

the strength you possess

you're tenderness.

above & below

the night we let go.

there is something i know

you're breaking through my skin

i love you like a melody..

you're running through my head

i love you like a simple song

you always sound the best.

i love you.

you always sound the best.

VENT:

if there is anything i learned up here...

it's how to talk to people when there is something wrong.

what never ceases to surprise me is how people CANNOT talk to you!

what in the world?

how will shutting me out and never telling me a THING help any situation?

are we 5 years old?

in junior high?

if that is what our friendship has come down to,

maybe it's not worth saving?

i don't know... and everything seems worse at night.

i'll be a semi-happy camper tomorrow.

TGFCamilla.

i've met some pretty amazing people up here.

& a boy who makes me smile :]

ya know how you tend to only write in your journal or a blog in my case when you

are upset?

yup, i'm one of those people.

haha.

i hope i have written enough of the good times i've had up here in Provo!

cause there have been so many!

i've made some really great friends.

& here i am struggling.

so where do i find myself?

writing.

i wanna take pictures.

i have an itch to create something and document how i see the world.

it's coming... i'm ready to break out soon!

oh & my family is coming up this weekend!

yayy... it's such a relief seriously.

there's nothing like having people that HAVE to love you no matter what :]

it's such a good feeling.

haha!

i miss them TONS!

but i don't really miss Las Vegas...

i miss friends & family...

they should all come up here! haha

... however, i need to be out here for myself.

it's been really good for me :]

i feel like tinkerbell when she has too many emotions but her body is too small

to contain all of them so she goes crazy ..

weird analogy i know..

i just have too many things i am thinking about i can't concentrate on anything!

oh brother..

oh! which reminds me, elizabeth smart has been called to serve in the same mission as my brother! woo hoo!

p.s. 4 months till i see him again :]

it feels like an eternity

oh! and it's getting cold here in utah!

i love it and i don't love it at the same time...

i love winter clothes.

just not the weather :]

i guess we can't all get what we want!

i went to SLC this weekend, and it was awesome!

i LOVEEE the temple soo much,

and i'm entirely jealous of all the people that can go through them right now!

it was fun!

umm what else is new?

i stay up too late.

but that's not new.

umm, i've been super obsessed with music lately.

also not entirely new.

haha... umm,

i think i'll end by writing down a couple of things that make me happy:

Camilla.

Mountains.

music.

chocolate & peanut butter.

finishing a goal.

true friends.

jayden.

kneaders.

being random.

smiling.

laughing.

feeling pretty :]

doing well in school.

my family.

minnie.

max.

nature.

movies... epic love stories.

being trusted.

knowing i can trust someone.

nicknames!

simple song.

you.