Winter is here.

Thanksgiving Break

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My trip home for Thanksgiving was pretty good. The food was delicious & the Summerhays family came over & I got to see my 2 favorite kids Kate & Max :] It's always hard to leave my friends... I love them so much & I haven't laughed so hard in so long... I also miss my family dearly. They are amazing. I love my mom. She really helped me this trip, I needed those mommy/daughter talks. She told me that she knows I can do anything I put my mind to. And I needed to hear that... It's really easy to forget who you are & your potential. I know I did... but I'm ready to reclaim what has always been mine.

It was a great 2 day break :]

much MUCH happier.

a great end to tonight :]

got my zumba on, shook some bootay.

& now off to Hannah's for a sleepover

not so lonely anymore!

goodbye monday!

hello tuesday ;]

Hello? You out there?

I just needed to put this out there somewhere in the universe

It's a quiet empty night in Utah.

& time has never gone by slower...

only 26 & 1/2 more hours till I am home. ughhhh

Gotta figure this out

by Erin McCarley

I separated my heart from my head
to feel out what's inside
I don't like what I see so
I say Goodnight.

Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming
in color black and white is not my friend-
candy coated figures hold me in my bed.

I've never been so deep inside a shadow
I've never been so insecure of what I know
I've gotta figure it out
I need a story to tell.
Where's the feeling I long for
I've gotta figure it out before I lose you love.

Big city streets are calling me loud
the busy keeps me high
But this quite town is weighing me down tonight.

I know that I should stay here for a while,
listen to the sound of my shakey heart
Looking for gold in the ground.
I've never been so deep inside, a shadow

I've never been so insecure of what I know
I've gotta figure it out
I need a story to tell
Where is the feeling I long for
I've gotta figure it out before I lose You
Before I lose you- ohhh

It's not okay to make your way, to make you wonder
Why I can't hold you close and give you hope
and this will be all right.
I wanna make it right
I've gotta figure this out
I need a story to tell
Where's the feeling I long for
I've gotta figure it out
I've gotta figure this out
I need a story to tell
Before I lose you
Before I lose you
Before I lose you love

To Do:

List of things to do while home:

1. Hang out with Lauren, Nicole, Kayla, Sarah, & people

2. Sleep in

3. Golden Spoon with Stacy

4. Shopping with my mother

5. Run

6. Make Thanksgiving dinner with my mom & gma

7. Watch the Macy's day parade

8. Take pictures with the family

9. Play games with the Summerhays family

I'M DYING TO GO HOME!

Sunscreen.

Ladies & Gentlemen ,

wear sunscreen...

if i could offer you one tip for the future,

sunscreen would be it.

the long term benefits of sunscreen have been proven by scientists.

where as the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience

i will dispense this advice...

enjoy the power of beauty of your youth

you will not understand the power of beauty of your youth until they are faded

and trust me in 20 years you will look back at photos of yourself &

recall in a way that you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you

and how fabulous you really looked

you are NOT as fat as you imagined.

don't worry about the future

but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra problem with bubblegum

the real troubles in your life ought to be things that have never crossed your worried mind

do ONE thing EVERYday that scares you.

sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, & don't put up with people that are reckless with yours. ♥

Don't waste your time with jealousy

sometimes you're ahead... sometimes you're behind

the race is long & in the end it's only with yourself

Remember compliments you receive... forget the insults.

If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters... throw away your old bank statements

DANCE.

even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room

Read the directions but don't follow them

DO NOT read beauty magazines they will only make you feel ugly.

But trust me on the sunscreen.

ouch.

the popcorn machine at work burned me again :[

Come, Come, Ye Saints

I love this hymn.

There are a lot of reasons why I love it

& some are really personal.

But I think everyone needs someone to remind them

All is Well.

Take a deep breath & remember the bigger picture.

You are loved.

Come, come, ye saints

no toil nor labor fear.

But with joy wend your way.

Though hard to you this journey may appear,

Grace shall be as your day.

'Tis better far for us to strive Our useless cares from us to drive

Do this and joy, your hearts will swell

All is well!

All is well!

Why should we mourn? Or think our lot is hard?

'Tis not so. All is right.

Why should we think to earn a great reward

If we now shun the fight?

Gird up your loins, fresh courage take.

Our God will never us forsake.

And soon we'll have this tale to tell.

All is well!

All is well!

Babbles

I am in an in-between mood that always follows the end of a work day.

It is a weird mood that has no definition because it's a combination of everything

I'm really really grateful for my friends.

I looooove them.

Harry Potter 7 comes out soon!!!

& I'm seeing it at noon on friday

hahahaha

Cori accidentally bought tickets for 12pm not am

I miss my home EVERYday.

I constantly freak myself out about where

my life is heading.

It is killing me a little bit inside each day I don't dance

I need a creative outlet.

I could cry right now thinking about

how excited I am for Thanksgiving.

Am I EVER going to graduate??

...

i looooveeee Bon Iver, Anne of Green Gables, & my mom

I would love a good mommy/daughter day.

A lot of people I know have been putting other people down

& i DONT understand why. How is that gratifying?

Do you REALLY find your self-worth by making

sure others don't feel happier than you??

LAME. AND BOYS... IT'S UNATTRACTIVE.

Life is so confusing

& I have no plan.

That is taking some getting used to.

blahhhh.

well, my shift is over.

off to Cori's

goodnight to you all :]

I don't know what this title should say??

OK , sooo... this week my friend Hannah had her 20th birthday. We all ate dinner at Olive Garden YUMM!!! Then I got SMUSHED in the car between Brian & my brother. They really did SMUSH me! Ouch. Anyways, it was fun & I love her to death :] I can't wait to be 20. Really I can't ... but then I want to freeze time and not get older. I'll let you know how that goes :] SOOOO. In June the Service program at UVU that I am involved in are taking 20 (what a good # haha) students to Fiji for 2 weeks. The deposit to ensure I am going isn't due until January BUT IF ITS THE LAST THING I DO I AM GOING!!!! So pray for me! haha. ALSO, last night I watched The Young Victoria with Cori & Staci. It was SO good. I loved it sooo much. I had been wanting to see it for a while! & oh my, Prince Albert is dreamy... If you do not melt while watching him then you are crazy. Unless you are a boy then I think you are an exception haha :] Movies in that time period do something to my heart, i guess you could call it swooning. Yes, I like that word ♥ swooonnn. Well, I get off work in 2 hours & 40 minutes. It is a friday so I am looking forward to having some funnnnnnn! Have a great weekend. Adios.

LOOK AT THAT HANDSOME FACE ^^^^ :] :]

♥

Romeo & Juliet:

"These violent delights have violent ends & in their triumph die, like fire and powder, which as they kiss consume."

-William Shakespeare

HE

is

a

genius.

♥

Halloween

I was little red riding hood... NOT a vampire. I spent Halloween working the UVU dance (because i'm on the dance committee) BUT it was fun. The boy in that picture is Wesley from The Princess Bride. LOVE that movie :] k, bye.

FALL

Sorry i suck at blogging lately! Here are some pics of my life in Provo lately. These are pics of my apartment & the pretty trees & such.