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stupid men are the only ones worth knowing - Pride & Prejudice

Jane Austen is a GENiUS!


"Vanity and pride are different things, though the words are often used synonymously. A person may be proud without being vain. Pride relates more to our opinion of ourselves, vanity to what we would have others think of us."

& so is mozella

"you always get your way...
if this is supposed to be something more,
kindly explain what all the pain is for??

you wanted it.
you wanted it.
don't lie to me.
don't act like i wanted it more...
it's time that we settle the score.
once & for all.

& i picture myself up in your face..
then i picture myself walking away.
... but it never seems to go that way.

it's time we even the score."

melodies ♥

i wish i had a permanent ipod in my head that could play all of these amazing songs that fit so perfectly into life!
well, for starters i found another song that i llooovveeee by kelly clarkson... so of course i'll share the lyrics with you.
2nd... i had such an amazing weekend that began at 11pm on a friday night when a bunch of my friends and i got bored and decided to take a road trip down to vegas!
3rd... this next weekend ... starting on thursday around 730 pm will beat all other weekends i've had in my entire life!

1st:

"if anyone asks, i'll tell them we both just moved on.
when people all stare i'll pretend i don't hear them talk...
whenever i see you i swallow my pride & bite my tongue.
& pretend that i'm ok with it all
act like there is nothing wrong.

is it over yet?
can i open my eyes?
is this as hard as it gets?
is this what it's like to really CRY?

if anyone asks i'll tell them we just grew apart.
what do i care if they believe me or not..
whenever i feel your memory is BREAKiNG my heart..
i'll pretend i'm ok with it all
act like there is nothing wrong.

is it over yet?
can i open my eyes?
is this as hard as it gets?
is this what it feels like to really cry?

i'm talking in circles
i'm lying, they know it.
why won't this all just go away...

is this what it feels like to really cry?"


a masterpiece if you ask me! but i say that about most songs that inspire me...
i just get it all out in music so i can move on in other places in my life,
which has been very effective really!
basically i won't talk about this very much so the bottom line is
i'm going to be great!
and that's what i'm working up to! :]
LiFE iS FABULOUS!

so 2ndly
my spontaneous trip to vegas this weekend was a blast & i can't even describe how much fun we all had!
some pictures are posted above!

ok, & 3rdly...
MY BROTHER COMES HOME FROM HIS MISSION IN LESS THAN 48 HOURS!!!!!!!!!!
i'm going home in 1 day to be there when he comes home!
i'm so soooooo stoked.
he's definitely going to be my best friend... i already decided so hopefully he agrees!
haha he's already such an example to me, & he's been such a blessing to my family
he is definitely my hero!

missionaries are super hard to send off but then they come home & it's amazing :]

i cannot wait life is so amazing!!

happily ever after ♥

" alot has happened - and most of it is not anything i expected or how things would turn out. i don't understand it all really. i just want CLARiTY & i'm learning not to be afraid of my feelings & to explore them.. even if they aren't pleasant, even if i'm AFRAiD of the truth. you can't hide from them. you need to accept them & pick yourself up .. then move on. easier said then done of course but it's all a learning experience. it's a journey and that's why we're here. i gave my life to someone that gave it AWAY- away not back because i will never have that life back. NEVER. that is a feeling i shy away from ... it's so... permanent. & it scares me to believe that but it's true. i can't look back anymore only forward- because forward is my life now... it's what it is now & how i will shape it. it feels empty & lonely at times but i turn my heart to God and he mends it for a while. He is like the perfect best friend."

this came straight from my journal. i've done so much learning and thinking lately.
& it's amazing what i have found.

the gospel is so magical, i wish everyone could understand the deep & infinite love Heavenly Father has
for everyone... how much He knows, how much He cares. He truly knows absolutely everything that
you fear, love, care about, want, and so on... i could go on forever. there is so much more i have learned.

it is ok to struggle and be afraid and cry...
it will all be ok.
because there is already a much much better plan unfolding in your life that God has prepared for you.
there are glimpses of light on the street corners in your life.
find them... people are sent to you on purpose..
nothing is coincidence

Even if you cannot always see that silver lining on your clouds, God can, for He is the
very source of the light you seek. he does love you, and He knows your fears. He hears
your prayers . He is your Heavenly Father, and surely He matches with His own the tears
His children shed. - Jeffery R. Holland.

i'm a quote addict and there are so many more to come,
but in the end...
i know what i want.

"if i am deciding who i want to spend eternity with i want someone who can't see a life without me, & who fights for me, & who would chase me if i walked away. i'm taking my heart back one sliver at a time & i will be all the things i want to be... but my mind will keep my heart in check because when i fall in love again, when i find my forever... He will care much too deeply about me, he'll think about how i'm doing all the time, he would never let me go, & believe with all his heart that every part of me is extraordinary & he is lucky. someday I WiLL FiND THiS..."

this is my happily ever after.... :]
the end.

TO: ...... LOVE: ME

Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in silence and short remark,
I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were, what happened?
You were a priority, was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?