glimpses

do you want a glimpse into my life?? from the start i have said i am not good with words, that is why you will ALWAYS find quotes or lyrics on my blog. it just says everything i can't. i am a passionate person. i know that for sure. but most the time i have tons of different emotions running through my head i don't even know where to start! what to say, how to say it. all that good stuff. i was reading this person's blog who i know as more of an acquaintance but i relate to her soo much. she was writing down some advice about a tough time her friend was going through. i read it and i couldn't believe it. it was like she was writing exactly to me. how does she say things so well?
anyways... it expressed everything i want or could say about my life and feelings at the moment... it gave me clarity. i need that. nothing is sure to me right now. clarity......
enjoy.



"i'm not gonna paint you a picture of time heals all wounds and the classic "meant to be" bull. It will hurt, you will feel like you are drowning and you are desperately gasping for air. You will walk around feeling a crack down the center of your chest and like there are literally chunks missing from your body. It will be heavy and hard to breathe at times. Nights are the worst so try and sleep...but if you cant and you need to scream its okay...scream.. The thought of driving away and disappearing will be enticing. You will often drive with no destination, with tears fogging your eyes and music blaring. You will feel a wide range of extremes from being angry, numb, broken and then sometimes... "okay". Your throat will tighten and burn when you fight back tears in public and you will get good at putting on a brave face. Then you will have days out of no where you are crying in the middle of applebees and its okay. Its okay to say you are broken, cause right now you are. When you think it cant get any worse....cant hurt anymore, it will.
But.....your name holds honor. You will be blessed in so many ways and find things to be proud of yourself for through this trial. Bright spots will be placed in your path and take the time to enjoy them. Those tender mercies are the times you need to remember when its too heavy and you dont know if you can stand anymore. Just buckle your knees and stand because it will be okay...just not yet."


there you go. now you know.
that's just all i wanted to say.