dayDREAMs

one of my amateur creations!

i edit pictures for fun on my macbook, it's something fun to do when i'm bored!

taylor swift came out with a few new songs

music does something for me

so does dance & pictures

i was listening to untouchable when editing this picture

i was missing someone,

but a line that goes along with this picture:

"i am no one special, just another wide-eyed girl whos desperately in love with you"

taylor swift is amazing for one huge reason.

her lyrics... they are so personal & passionate. i love them!

i never know how to describe myself or feelings. she does a lot of it for me!

hey there,

i really haven't written for a while. or so it feels.

i'm home for the holidays,

escaping the cold feels just fabulous!

my hair has changed a bit because i'm slowly working my way back to blonde

(as you can see from the picture above)

well... i've been daydreaming a lot & also discovering new music

so i've felt inspired lately.

i've been very thoughtful about the future and my options

i haven't come to any conclusions yet.

guess what??

my brother comes home from his mission in 1 month from tomorrow.

WOW!

i can't believe it i really can't.

i miss him sooo much.

SOOOO much!

i read such an amazing quote today at church:

"Lord, help me remember that nothing is going to happen to me today that you & i can't get through together."

don't you love it?

it's very comforting.

i decided the future & growing up is scary.

everything is so secure when you are living at home.

not anymore though! but it's ok.

it's supposed to be this way, and i wouldn't want it any different.

besides, Heavenly Father is with you every step of the way.

i've really been learning lately how much He loves everyone individually and cares about each struggle you go through & how much He wants to help you through them.

the Lord is always on your side.

that's also comforting!

I recently reread one of my favorite books

the truth about forever

it's so amazing

Sarah Dessen wrote it.

i have almost all her books. i'm working on the collection!

anyways, i love it because its about not having everything perfect.

somethings are meant to be imperfect.

you work around them and through them and appreciate flaws

i think people these days kill themselves trying to be better & better

don't get me wrong improving yourself is important and working towards

goals is VERY VERY important.

but i'm talking about ridiculous goals that cannot be reached

comparing yourself to other people

holding your value in the hands of the world and not God.

EVERYone is special, i know it.

it's hard to remember, i know this as well.

but when it comes down to it....

there is a magic in everyone that cannot be replaced or repeated.

i don't care what anyone says that is TRUE.

i need to take my own advice sometimes!

don't we all?

the hardest part: discovering what my magic is & where it lies.

i have a lot of thoughts like these running through my head constantly

i analyze and reanalyze my life all the time

what am i doing with my life,

where is it going,

who is very important to keep in my life

what means most to me

where my heart lies

what i could do better in

what kind of person/friend i am

la la la la la la la la la la la

i'd say its overwhelming but i don't like complaining

then i'd notice that i need to improve in that.

here is where the truth about forever comes in

accepting the imperfections of my character & finding the people..

that love to be around you without wanting to change you

that love you for who you are and not for the person they want you to be

i am much too concerned with working on my own flaws

& improving myself

to have other people point it out to me.

when it comes down to it

what i want..

is to be with someone,

who ultimately feels lucky to be with me, for me.

just as i am.

i want to go to bed at the end of the day knowing i was myself.

that's the most rewarding feeling of all.

i HAD A DREAM

i was a little girl alone in my little world

who dreamed of a little home for me..

i played pretend between the trees & fed my house guest bark & leaves

& laughed in my pretty bed of greens.

i had a dream.

that i could fly from the highest swing,

i had a dream.

long walks in the dark, through woods grown behind the park

i asked God who i'm supposed to be.

the stars smiled down on me,

God answered in silent reverie

i said a prayer

& fell asleep.

i had a dream

that i could fly from the highest tree,

i had a dream.

now i'm old & feeling gray.

i don't know what's left to say about this life i'm willing to leave.

i lived it full, i lived it well

as many tales as i lived to tell,

i'm ready now... i'm ready now.

to fly from the highest wing.

i had a dream...

♥