since i have the habit of blogging when i'm upset...

why in the world is everyone

GETTING MARRIED!?

can we all just chill out for a second...

i'm not going to have any friends soon

cause they will all be married before i am 20

leaving me an old CAT LADY.

not ok people, not ok.

end rant.

the archie.

on tuesday my friend Cori invited me to come to a book signing David Archuleta was doing.

it wasn't really advertised that much so it wasn't SUPER crowded.

but WOW

he is so talented.

he sounds even better live than on CD if that is even possible.

He was super super nice & sang 2 songs.

"crush" & "lean on me" (accapella)

he's a lot littler in person.

but still super cute!

it was amazing and definitely made my week :]

oh & he touched my hand. haha

the book

cute smile!

who are you not to be?

there are some days where i feel very insignificant

& most days i battle self doubt on & off

each day when something in my head or someone tells me what i can't do

who i can't be

i fight it off

i battle with that because it is 100 percent NOT TRUE.

as goes for EVERYONE.

our biggest critics are ourselves & that statement is factual in my life.

HOWEVER,

i believe with my entire heart we all have the potential to be greater than we ever imagined

"it is not our darkness that scares us the most it is our light. We are afraid that we could be more powerful than we imagined. Sometimes we say who am I to be beautiful, wonderful, and smart. WHO ARE YOU NOT TO BE???"

this constant thought or fear of failure is a battle but it's one worth fighting...

especially in this time of my life where i am considering alll my options

alll my possibilities & the great things i want to accomplish

which is scary because once it is in my head... it won't leave & then it might mean...

I ACTUALLY HAVE TO DO IT!

scary thought haha.

but i've created a list of goals or things i want to accomplish this summer/ over my lifetime

it made me feel so happy to write this all down & consider my options

& i some of them have already begun to happen

& then the more i realized i can actually do some of these crazy things.

like,

compete in Miss UVU.

or create my own pottery on a pottery wheel

it feels good to know i can accomplish things and have more passions

BE a BETTER ME.

I hope this summer is full of accomplishments & hope.

hope for my possibilities

happiness for the things i conquer

as for now i smile because every little part of the day is great.

even just the sun shining :]

HELLO, my name is meagan & i am alive.

i don't want to be the kind of person that lets my fear dictate my life.

i want to be fearless

but being fearless does not mean the lack of fear

i believe it means having fears & doubts but facing them.

i believe being a warrior is letting yourself fall apart on the floor

then picking yourself up & moving on full of hope.

BELIEVE in your achievements

HOPE for your possibilities

PEACE for where you are & where you are going

it is ok to feel pain, anger, fear..

i want to feel these but just as IMPORTANTLY let them go

i want them to wash over me like a waterfall

but just as quickly flow away.

i want to be human so i know what joy, success, & strength feels like

i don't want to be jaded from the scars on my hearts or the trails in my life

i want to soak them up with all the knowledge they are worth & let

my experience shine through my smile.

HOME means NEVADA home means the hills .

home means nevada, home means the hills.. the sage & the something something... casinos & heat.. ya i bet those are the words!

you gotta love those silly state theme songs they made you learn in elementary school. we learned ALL of them at good ol' bartlett elementary :] good times!

ANYWHO... i returned home this weekend. it's been 3 months! and sadly i don't see me being available to make another trip till august :[ for like 1 day till we leave for paris! which i think calls for a HOOORRAYYY! can't wait. ok side tracked. ANYWAYS! my friend from provo Melissa joined me. I've known her for about almost 2 years now... we are rooming together in the fall so i'm sure you will see more of her in the future!

my new favorite line:

"there is FLY & FLY-ERR"

k so i'm thinking i'd say sweets are my weakness and then i think about french fries & then i think about bread so i'm like what the heck FOOD is my weaknesss!! there is this fabulous restaurant called SAMMY's in vegas so we went there for lunch & this is called the MESSY SUNDAE. don't even worry, we ate the whole thing. it was worth every calorie :]

my lovely father! he is 50! can you believe it?? i can't.

at BJ's

if you haven't been there and eaten a pazookie. you are not human.

jessica, alexandria, melissa & me

♥

it was a fun trip.

i enjoyed soaking up the sun & the heat.

it is nice having family around because it's comforting

it's a peaceful feeling

there is nothing like it.

inspirational.

if any of you have not read this girl's blog you need to.

http://nieniedialogues.blogspot.com/

it is purely inspirational...

Her & her husband survived an airplane accident and it left her completely scarred

she has a little family and blogs about her every day life

she finds goodness and beauty in every moment.

it is AMAZiNG.

this girl is my hero

& reading her blog i feel like i can do anything!

i'm so grateful for strong people like her. wow.

watch this video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KHDvxPjsm8E

PHO-TAW-GRAPHY

i have a new passion.

photography.

♥

my best friend jessica

the colors suck on this blog but you get the idea!

it's always been something that's been there that i've loved...

& for christmas this year i got the most amazing camera ever.

& so this passion has taken over!

i just wanna take pictures all day...

i have no experience at all so i'm not amazing but when it's something you love to do...

you don't really need to be amazing!

my goal for the future is to better my photography skills & open a business on the side..

i've been playing around with some ideas for names to call my business but i haven't thought of anyones that stand out quite yet!

i've thought about the traditional

meagan mariah photography

or something creative like

amore photography

amore means passion... but i don't want to decide yet so we will see!

one thing utah is good for is providing great background for picture taking :]